How It Feels to Have Anxiety & Depression
How does it feel to have Anxiety and Depression at the same time? It comes out of nowhere. Suddenly you fall into the bottom of a dark well. You land in a pool of deep water gasping for air you reach the surface. Your still alive but feel like your dying. Anxiety starts to kick in. Your trying to escape but there is no way up. You see sunlight at the top of the well but it is far away. You see the people that are happy and joyful but it is out of reach.
Your trapped at the bottom of the well. It’s torture seeing the people walk past the well you are trapped in. Some people look down at the well but then walk away. Your screaming for help but no one can hear you. It’s all in your head. In reality you are unable to react. No one is able to help you they can’t hear the mental screaming.
You want to escape this state of mind so much you begin punching the brick wall that surrounds you. You keep punching till your hands are bruised and bleeding and then suddenly you realize that there’s no way up.
Now the anxiety has left but depression has taken over. Your just floating in the murky water staring at the opening that is above you. Till the point you get tired of trying to live and you begin to sink. Your muscles tired of fighting no longer moving until your lungs slowly begin to fill up with water and your breathing stops.
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This is something I wrote awhile back *note I don’t feel like this right now but sometimes those thoughts come back and I just keep fighting.
I’m going to keep sharing my struggles even though I know my voice will not be heard today this is just for me. If you suffer from either Anxiety or Depression feel free to share your story below.
