WHERE SHOULD I MOVE?
WHERE SHOULD I MOVE? How can I do this on my own…
I feel like I ran out of time again. September is next week and I know in October starts the cold weather here in Texas. I’m tired of having to go back in forth for my health. I don’t know what to do anymore. Should I risk it and rent an Airbnb and try to get a job in a month near Boca Raton Florida? Should I sell my car and convert it to a van living space and move to Florida with it and stay at camp sites and get a job up north east Florida in the winter months and drive down to Orlando Panama City or Texas for the summer months.
Should I just go to El Salvador and rely on my family and rely solely on inconsistent commissions and freelance work I make to pay for amenities. I don’t know what to do. I’m just tired of feeling so damn alone in this journey. I lack strong network of friends reason why I just want to live somewhere where my skin manages and I can stay long term to connect with others. Everything I do is to be able to one day do the things I love with others.
What’s the point of having money if my health deteriorates?
What the point of having money when you don’t have the time to even use it with others?
Every-time I try to stay here in Texas and work through the Winter Season my skin flares up badly and I am put in a position that every waking hour feels like a living hell. I end up dragging my feet out of bed wincing in pain and using a towel to bite down on when I shower. This is no way to live and I feel like I put myself in this sacrificial position because I think I have no other choice when I know I do. So I tried to stay here in Texas all in the effort to save up money in other to move to another place where I won’t have to go through so much pain not only physical but physiological pain. So its part of the reason I’m never really able to accomplish fitness goals or make new good friends because I am either in too much pain to even move out of my bed or I am in another location just solely focusing in recovering my health.
It’s this indecision in not knowing where or how the hell I’m going to make a move that drives straight into the hands of anxiety and depression.
El Salvador
- Not good pay in Job Market and very limited hard to get but I will have my health.
- Cost of Food is Cheap and Organically Grown. Cost of Holistic Treatment/ Medical Affordable and I know work.
- As a single female trying to live on her own I can run into security issues. Difficult to make solo trips to the beach. Will most likely to be safe live under a family member place and rent for long term. Will be difficult to ever have independence. Forever under the rules with who I live with. Being in El Salvador on Vacation is always different then actually living there.
- Cost of MMA Gym Affordable only $30 a month includes everything cost for personal coach not expensive. Cost for Vball Clubs in Santa Ana Affordable as well.
- Religion: Almost everyone in my age group are Catholic that I will run into. Christian Church only in Spanish and lacks in engaging young adults. Most are brought forced by parents.
Florida
- Cost of Living is High and pay will be alright. Job Market super competitive hard to acquire High Paying Jobs.
- Cost of Food and Health Care will be high so most likely wont be able to get any proper Holistic treatments unless I land a really good job or client.
- However as a single female I will be able to live on my own. I will be able to go to the ocean or beach alone whenever I want and be safe. I will be able to eventually if I start out with a roommate to live on my own and have my own place. Hopefully get a puppy I want a Brown red French Poodle.
- Cost of MMA Gym High cost on average a whopping $150 a month no personal coach included and only a few classes limited hours for some gyms. (Reason why I include this is its the only way I will be able to interact with other human beings.) Youfit Gyms cost around $30.
- Religion: VOUS church will be able to connect with like minded individuals around my age group. Super engaging group and will be able to socialize in small groups twice every other week.
Texas
- Cost of living is affordable to live on your own and the Job Market is always in demand easy to get a high paying job in less then two weeks. However my health is inconsistent feels like a roller coaster of ups and downs and considering the costs below making a $500 trip to El Salvador is always necessary.
- Cost of Food and Health Care is High I use to pay $500 with two visits a month to get Chinese Medicine treatments. Cost of phototherapy which i need if I ever were to stay in winter costed me $50 per session twice a week. $400 a month on average would be just for this. Overall combined effort to keep health in winter will be $900 a month. Trips to the beach once a month if I travel to another place like Miami or Cancun for a weekend and continue working the weekday will be $200-$500 cost if it were Galveston beach during the summer would be $80.
- As a single female will be able to live on my own. Can easily find a roommate have a lot of connections.
- Cost of MMA Gym $150 on average Next Generation and not even 24hrs. Will have to go to 24hr gym and cost would be $40-$60 depends on membership.
- Religion: Some good Churches but are a far drive not ever as engaging like Vous Church was back in Miami.
I feel like all I got are these damn words that aren’t being read. So how in the world will people know my pain know what’s going on inside my head? My anxiety has limited me in so many ways I hope to keep fighting it because when combined with depression it can become a problem. Do you know what’s it like to actively fight for a dream for over 3 years and still not reach it? I want to live near the beach, be surrounded by good friends have a business that lets me help others, and have control over my health. I am not giving up I know my effort in growing my Youtube, Instagram, and Blog will one day bear fruit. Whole point is to be able to one day live the nomadic lifestyle I know I want to live and impact others in a positive way. I get frustrated that others can so easily attain what I put a lot effort and hours in. Clearly its not enough need to keep punching the bag. Keep posting Youtube Videos knowing only an audience of 5 will be watching.
