Eczema Being Affected By Location
It isn’t fair. It isn’t fair that I live a healthy lifestyle drink enough water and still have to suffer everyday due to the location I reside. It isn’t fair that no matter how many podcasts I listen to and books I read I’m still suffering a mental battle everyday. I just want to live a normal life filled with freedom and adventures. I just want to be able to sleep. Why can’t I sleep? Why must I scratch myself unconsciously and feel as if fire ants are biting my entire body the entire night? I feel like an outcast in society. I feel like I keep having to use this stupid disease eczema as an excuse why I’m not doing the things I normally do. I’m tired of eczema defining and controlling my life. What the hell is keeping me here in Texas? Family and job security.
I need to move but as single female things actually are limited. In El Salvador I would never be able to live on my own. I would have to live with a family member and pay rent due to safety. Your less of a target this way. Now same thing will sort of apply in some parts of Cancun so I would be careful in deciding where I would stay. It’s easy for those who have a lot of money to pay for high end security or who travel with their partners. Here’s the thing in El Salvador I with confidence can say I can get healed up from eczema. To the point eczema becomes a thing of the past. Of course it takes 6 months for me to heal over there with consistent effort. I can’t say the same for Miami Florida. There were a lot of times I would stress out and flare up severely. Although for the majority of the year eczema was controlled. My issue with living in El Salvador is not being able to find a job that pay wells in order to cover all the medical bills and healthy plant based diet meals. A lot of remote jobs can only be done in the US. I would have to rely 100% on my side hustles.
In Miami I wouldn’t have any access to medical holistic doctors like I did in El Salvador. There overpriced and under delivering here in the USA. Along with this the cost of living in Miami is substantially higher then El Salvador. Major difference is the freedom I would have to do things on my own in Miami is greatly distinct. I would be able to drive around with my windows down. I would be able to go to the beach by myself and just tan without worrying. I would be able to rent my own place and live alone. I would be able to collab with others without having to hire a body guard or accompany a guy. Along with this I would be able to network and meet people again like I did at MMA gyms and playing volleyball. I wouldn’t be so damn alone like I was in El Salvador. Healed up my eczema but friendship wise I was lacking and going crazy. However If I were to get a place near Santa Tecla I would probably be able to network at a local gym. What I hate the most is the fact that in El Salvador you have to accompany a male figure or person you know to be considered “safe” to go places as a female. It’s irritating since I need to for health reasons to consistently visit the beach and you can’t do it on your own over there.
Although my circumstances may be difficult I will keep fighting for my vision. I know I will be able to heal my eczema and help others one day. For now I don’t think anybody will read this and thats alright im just going to start sharing my struggles with the world. I know as long as I can impact one person in a positive way that is all I need to keep pushing forward. I know there is another individual out there in the world struggling to relocate for their skin. I just want you to know if your reading this that your not alone.
